Thursday, 20 October 2016

I want to be a real adult

Right now I don't really count myself as a 'real' adult.

I'm 23 years old, but I'm still a student. I don't have to worry about council tax or mortgages, which is great. But actually, I am ready to just be a real adult now.

I want to move out of student living and not have to share one bathroom with 4 other people. I want to actually have my own money and be able to pay my parents back for the debts that I owe them. I want to decorate a house and get a dog and have a routine.

I want to have the responsibility of setting up a pension scheme and a savings account. I want to get home from work and be able to switch off - not have to spend hours doing case reports and drug formularies after hospital. I want to be able to make my own decisions about what direction my life should be heading in. I just kind of want to be a doctor now, so I can actually help patients and not feel like I'm just getting in the way.

Don't get me wrong, I will miss student discount and not having too many responsibilities (and the endless nap potentials), but I feel ready to move on now after over 4 years of studying.

I'm excited for what next year will hold for me. Dr Hannah, here I come.
Always be a work in progress.
                - Emily Lillian

Tuesday, 18 October 2016

A quick reminder

I had to keep reminding myself of this today, as I've had a bit of a rough day and haven't really been feeling myself. I'm trying to be patient with myself but I just want to be okay now, I don't want to have to wait!

I'm currently watching Beauty and the Beast after a long day of sleeping and trying to stop negative thoughts from taking over. I have my dogs and some hot chocolate, so I'm hoping that helps me this evening!

Hannah x

Monday, 17 October 2016

Home is where the heart is

After a weekend at home it's always so hard to leave and go back up to Liverpool for another week at university. I get back into having all of my home comforts and my dogs and family around me, and leaving that behind doesn't get any easier, even though I've been at university for over 4 years now.

And I really do love Liverpool - it has become my second home and will always have a special place in my heart. I'm hoping to be there for another couple of years for my foundation doctor years. But I guess home will always be home, and it will probably always be difficult to leave. Especially when I know when I'm going back to Liverpool for 8am starts and long(ish) shifts in hospital. I just want to be home where my mum can look after me and my dogs will snuggle in bed with me in the mornings!

I always feel a bit down whenever I have to leave to go back, but I think that's just normal for everyone - a normal human reaction. I've decided to drive straight to hospital tomorrow morning so that I can squeeze in an extra night at home; plus I get to see my dogs in the morning then :)

Also look at Buster's adorable face - how could I possibly want to leave him?
It's not what happens, it's how you handle it.

Sunday, 16 October 2016

Metallic midi skirt

Silver metallic midi skirt
Silver metallic pleated midi skirt

Silver Metallic Skirt - New Look
Black Denim Jacket - Topshop
80's T-Shirt - Primark
Badges - Bought in Australia
Socks - Asos
Trainers - H&M (Similar)

I have had a really chilled weekend this week. I went out on Friday and have really just slept and tidied since then. I met my friend Roxy for a hot chocolate this morning so this was the outfit I wore - I'm loving midi skirts at the moment, and anything metallic. I decided to dress my skirt down with a simple t-shirt and trainers, and add little details like a choker and cute badges.

My car failed its MOT yesterday so I've got to stay at home for it to be fixed tomorrow - a bit annoying, but I guess it means that I can have a lie-in and another night at home!

Silver metallic pleated midi skirt

I've been spending a lot of time asleep on the sofa, and Bruce has been keeping me company - literally sleeping on top of me most of the time. He's cute, but he really needs to learn about personal space!

I hope you have all had a lovely weekend - and have a good Monday tomorrow!
Your smile is your logo, your personality is your business card, how you leave others feeling after having an experience with you becomes your trademark.

Thursday, 13 October 2016

WIN with Princess Boutique

Princess Boutique was founded in July 2016, and their aim is to give everyone time to be pampered at affordable prices within their home. Nicola Noel, the owner, states that it is "so important that everyone should believe they are beautiful".

The services they offer include:
- Hen parties
- Baby showers
- Weddings
- Special occasions
- Pamper parties
- Christmas parties
- Hair up
- Makeovers
- Make up tutorials
- Massages and facials
- Acrylic nails/gels

The team at Princess Boutique are all self-employed and are presenters for Younique Beauty, so use Younique products on people that utilise their services, such as for make-up and pamper sessions.

Princess Boutique is very interested in helping those with mental health issues and disabilities (hence contacting me!), and they offer 10% off any treatments for people within those categories.

They are also attending the Clothes Show this year to promote Time for Escape, an online organisation that aims to "give people an escape from their ordinary lives" and "give them time out to enjoy themselves no matter what they're going through". Time for Escape is a Facebook page that provides support to those in need of some TLC, and will point people in the direction of local services that may be helpful for them. This organisation is especially targeted towards those with depression, anxiety, Asperger's and other mental health conditions and disabilities.

Now here's the exciting bit: I have teamed up with Princess Boutique to run a giveaway to win a pamper party for 2 people, plus a luxury goody bag each. All you have to do is enter via the Rafflecopter below!

a Rafflecopter giveaway

This giveaway is only open to those that are 16+ and based in the UK. It will be running from 13th-28th October 2016, and the winner will be notified via email or Twitter. The winner will be able to organise dates and times of the pamper party with Princess Boutique.

For any enquiries, or to organise a pampering session, you can contact Princess Boutique via their website or email them at

Good luck to everyone!
Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, this time more wisely.
                   -  Henry Ford

Wednesday, 12 October 2016

Wahaca and The Girl on the Train

Wahaca, 24 College Lane, Liverpool, L1 3DS

I wrote about Wahaca, the Mexican restaurant, a few months ago (post here), but tonight I visited again with my friend as I was craving a burrito. Wahaca is one of my favourite restaurants in Liverpool, so I was really looking forward to this evening!

We both had cocktails to drink - I had a mojito and it was delicious.

Last time I went to Wahaca I ordered the sweet potato and feta taquito, and I had to have it again because it is one of the most amazing things I have ever eaten. It has sweet potato inside, and is smothered in feta cheese and mayonnaise. Literally heaven on a plate.

I also had the cactus and courgette burrito, which was also really, really good. I loved the nachos and the guacamole on the side.

Afterwards we went to the Odeon cinema to watch The Girl on the Train. I read the book recently and really enjoyed it, so I had high hopes for the film. Some of the things were slightly different to the book - one of the biggest being that the film is set in America, whereas the book is set in the UK. However it was still a great film and I would recommend a watch - although if you want to read the book, definitely read it before you see the film as you don't want to spoil the ending! The book has a much better and longer build-up to it that means it leaves you in suspense after each chapter, and the story line is explained better in words than it is portrayed on screen.

I had a really lovely night - I love mid-week meet ups and a bit of a treat to keep me going until the weekend.
By doing what you love, you inspire and awaken the hearts of others.

Tuesday, 11 October 2016


Today I am, quite honestly, overwhelmed by the support from yesterday's post.

When I wrote about my overdose I didn't really know how people would take it. I thought some may think that I was crazy, stupid, selfish, mad. I thought that some people would want to avoid me from now on. I thought that perhaps I would be seen as a bad person because of what I did. I just knew it was important to get my story out there: even if it only helped one other person it would be worth it.

I honestly didn't expect the support that I have got from the post, and the amount of people that have messaged me or commented is amazing. It makes me realise that I did the right thing in telling my story. I have cried a lot since posting it - due to the relief of finally telling the world, and also the lovely, lovely comments that I have received from people. Especially my mum. My mum made me cry a lot (like mother, like daughter, hey Mum?).

In fact, my mum text me this text:
"What a brave post! Actually for the first time since that awful day I didn't cry when I thought about it. Do you know why? It's because I can see that you have come so far and out the other side of a terrible illness. You are so much stronger now and doing something that you love and helping others. That makes me so proud. So happy to have you as my daughter and best friend. Love you to the moon and back."

I am one lucky daughter, and also a very lucky friend/sister/grandaughter/cousin/medical student/blogger.

THANK YOU to everyone for being so, so supportive. I hope I continue to be honest and open with you, and help as many people along the way as possible. Love you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Things turn out best for people who make the best out of the way things turn out.